Just the other week trying to transfer joy
as if it were as easy as handing out free money
and the rebuff had no drama even in itself.
The street was still, foot traffic kept to its own business
and the home, when gotten back to, gave affectless
re-welcoming, having no idea what feelings churned,
only the tabby alert enough to squeak hello
circling the kibble bowl to a few cute enervated words.
It's dead winter now. Twig tree, corpse-cold,
slow mutual motion -- laws of gravity and all that -- to draw
smooth snow, black moods, arthritis all together.
If the mouth pronounces an end to a February
not yet come, if in its present form the voice
concludes this January now, and the mind marches
March to an end, then what's to hold but what's held
anyway -- the imaginary Spring, always, for the taker.
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not yet come, if in its present form the voice
concludes this January now, and the mind marches
March to an end, then what's to hold but what's held
anyway -- the imaginary Spring, always, for the taker.
Oh I can truly relate to this write - your poetic description beautiful - the Northwest so dreary in winter, it plays on the mind and spirit - here too with the fog and cold and dripping trees..Jan the worst, Feb a little lighter on the soul...and March, March is my god after a Northern Cal winter...it is there Spring..it is there, keep imagining....bkm
ReplyDeleteI'm actually very much in my element in winter, relishing the simple grayscale imagery and delicious cold.
ReplyDeleteWell i see...saisonal sadness breakdown.You just need the spring of Vivaldi, watching " le sacre du printemps" de Stravinsky, orchestred by BĂ©jart,have a look to Botticelli,somme flowers, some fruit, and then, smile is back.Am i a good doctor?
ReplyDeleteBarbara,
ReplyDeleteLived in Bay Area for a long time -- coast to Marin/Napa/Fairfield. I remember the winters.
Here, colder by a chunk of degrees, enough to verge too often around and just below freezing.
And, grey.
Thank you for 'vibrating with' the description. I wish us a quickly-arriving Spring!
Trulyfool
Tess,
ReplyDeleteYes. By comparison, I'm strictly 'wuss' material. I wouldn't be able to face a mid-West winter. West Coast stuff is much milder.
But we're spoiled by the mildness. At least I am. There are snow sporters here who pray for snow and involve themselves with it.
Enjoy your season! I don't mean to take away any pleasure!
Trulyfool
Dr. Isabelle,
ReplyDeleteI feel better already! Oranges. Sweet apples!
(And the Stravinsky pushed back all the cold soil in my vicinity!)
Tfool
I have an internet friend who lives in Finland, in darkness for hours longer than we are this time of the year;I can't imagine it, having to create an interior life to offset that--it's amazing how the spirit of winter oppresses(well, most of us)no matter how light its hand. I've never been colder or more depressed than the winter I spent in San Francisco--no insulation, no heaters to speak of, cold fog and endless waves of rain.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the excellent capture of a mood and time in your piece. Enjoyed it.
I liked this moody piece
ReplyDeletemelancholy song of longing
for spring
she'll be here soon
and then you can dance with her
and say what arthritis
I'd try a little Prokofiev. And Grieg. And scotch.
ReplyDeleteJoy,
ReplyDeleteHalf of Frisco is just that: damp and Maltese Falcon-esque. In summer, the fog is thick like cotton.
The other half is cheerfully sunny.
Great effects right where the two meet.
Trulyfool
Suz,
ReplyDeleteYes, soon. The rough edges of winter are just plain unpleasant. When I lived in California, it was simply a matter of heavier windbreaker and a light head cover.
It's not that I have arthritis. Winter buckles me in as though.
TFool
Karin,
ReplyDeleteLikely any classical music -- something 'serious', with a taste 'strong enough to stand up to' winter.
Shostakovich would be a good 'equalizer'.
Trulyfool