The side effects of a pill. Being aware and becoming wary of them. Like the presence of -- I don't believe in ghosts -- some 'unwanted visitor'. Raising the hair on my legs while tingling and numbing them. Leaving pinprick marks on a curve like a segment of crop circles. Not really fattening my lips, so why the feeling of that?
Not so much in control as when I was a young man panicked merely by accusations against my looks.