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Flying down to the mud
fishing for birds
how their song gurgles
how their wings swim
So unlikely to die, then,
one's clean body rising
mucks back to the womb
meiosis of starburst.

Heat wave, so.
Grabbing for ice in the Safeway aisle, maneuvering past an old, heavy gentleman with a Santa Claus beard.
'E wouldn't let me by.
Brash at 'im: Oi! Father Christmas, get yer spunk away.
(With a full yank at his full beard, giving him a topple teethwards to the store floor.)
Cialis chalice?
Niagara of Viagra?
Limited, for sure, in my giving.
At what point do I not give money?
Never a scheduled time
Not tempting enough to tempt

Running is the water, and hot, the chrome spiggot condensed-over on the coldest days,
unsignalledly innocent yet feverish to the touch on the warmest.
Dreary upsmanship ranks a tedious iteration of numbers,
down under revealed after typically impatient offer.
Don't umpires resolve -- at times, impose -- odd negations,
doowop utterings regurge a tune, indeed, of naysaying?
Driving under, round, and to, I open nothing.
Drinking up -- ripped and tilted -- I overspill nuggets:
different utterances reach a tongue in overt noises.
Deliver us! reports a tentful in one's nearby.
Partisan warfare
How many flies and how pesky
To ruin a picnic
Do underseals radiate at times into one, nodding,
docile unto rules a tiger imitates on noons?
Dusty undertakings risk a tragic intersect or nap,
dictated, until regarded (at two imbecilic nooks),
described unremittingly (reconceiving, tight-imbalanced noodle!)
Dry umber rubs aggravated tummies in one's notice,
Dull unto raucous arenas tucked in our neighborhood
Dinned-up, righteously-aired, to instigate or nail.

Not a matter whether Sarah Palin's qualified for high -- or any -- office.
The question is how long she can sustain a spree of debauch fueled by ATM robberies.
The end has to justify the means it uses to justify itself.
Which means the means -- even when they are seen being justified by the end -- really are the justification for any end that wants even to pretend to be an end.
Without that justification, such 'ends' pretend, passing mirages passing as oases.
Men Don't Cry
Men Die First
...
Napa, vast vats:
Even common slosh uncommon.
New Y, for being brighter:
No criticism of it.
Not just re-did Nam, worse:
Sucked legend from The Big One ("II").

Having for 20 years refused to kiss
Except in a Raskolnikovian sense of desiring to transmit disease.

Teacher's last lesson.
To poker-faced students:
The gold's here, right here. Right fucking here!
To heat up day-old pastries in the microwave.
And, taken-out, hear them whisper back.
Randy Churchill, marked with some promise, got -- it seems --
poxed-up by some floozy and lost his mind to spirochetes.
And never showed love to his son Winston.
Hung-low ceiling
With its 'cottage cheese', they-say-it's-not-asbestos
Earthquaked like an avalanche of snow, like the 'snow' in a vat of curd
Whose taste or inhale's like the entry breath to heaven.
Aging, for me:
To become, at once,
Both scrawny
And flaccid;
Fallen ass
And no ass
Long-ex-fiancee's impatient (?) email dousing a friendly post-birthday greeting:
"Don't get your anal-retentive communication style. I say -- cease and desist. I've got better things to do."
Wondering: bitterness kicking up from 40-plus year old memory? Bleed-over from other experiences utterly unrelated?
Crazy?
Forgive this: whereto my foreskin?
Is it floating in a jar of f'hyde, still, on a shelf in someone's garage basement
Is it held, reliquam in partu
Still being shaved as a hard horn to facilitate the 'pop' of fertility
A talisman
In the Nazi Anthropological Museum of Asuncion, Paraguay
Would that Chicago midwife know

Groucho the Gramp.
Dads and Bros: 3 Steves/2 Allens/a Klein/a Dave
Smooth, leavening cousins: Cavett and Paar.
Swimming, boating, sunning, burgering.
Mountain summer evening, 2 beers, roadhouse guitar, her light dress, bouncing through a dance
A point of order, in time.
Barney Kessel (guitar), Charlie Shavers (trumpet), Ray Brown (bass), Oscar Peterson (piano), Alvin Stoller (drums), Flip Phillips (tenor sax)
featuring Joe McCarthy (vocals)
Small Combo, Red Scare

Small talk without verve is
A plateful of empty soup.
Forgive my not 'instantly' putting this down. There was a change in school quarters, a new responsibility heaped on me (for which I had to smile and enthusiastically call out, "Yes, J.B.! Of course, J.B.! Great idea, J.B.!") Despite the kinder, gentler etiquette of our declared utopia, the U.S. of A. Today, Inc., the demands to kiss ass and do it like you really mean it challenge even the yesman skills of those drilled in the business world of Sydney Greenstreet's character in The Hucksters. You remember the scene where Gable winces as Greenstreet demonstrates a point visually by hocking a louie on the boardroom table and wiping it up with his kerchief? I carry a kerchief round my neck -- and make sure a hint of chest hair shows!
Bozoworld and Spiritworld are coterminous.
The air wends through each, denizens move from one to the other, adjusting as if weaving through a crowd.
It's all unthinking.
Explosive jammed in a bottle.
Not a reprimand, but a question and a caution.
I left it. It hung there in the faces unsure, but continuing to toy with the fuse, a little hesitant,
An echo of doubt, shadow the ghost of Superego.
No. They don't want impeccable credentials, a perfect resume, faultless results.
They want credentials that seem impeccable, a resume that appears perfect, results that get called faultlessly executed.
Let's give him a name: Me.
Let's give me a proper name: Rory. John. Ben.
Ben woke up only to find his sleep. What he dreamt of he couldn't say, but it had to do with names.
There was breakfast, and the reading of an antique book held so long over that he hadn't been billed by the library he'd moved away from. A day begins thus. This day began, too.